Cain, the first murderer of the humankind.
‘Cause there were only four people; Adam,
Eve, Abel and Cain when Cain killed Abel.
So calling Cain the first fratricide would be
Meaningless. Lamech, 6th descendent of
Cain didn’t just keep ancestor’s tradition,
but also created a new tradition by taking
two wives; Adah and Zillah. He showed a
great courage to stretch the meaning of
God’s holy will; to make one from created
one man and one woman. ‘Adah’ is said to
mean ‘embellish’; Embellishment is women’s
basic instinct. Who can blame woman who
wants to be pretty? The name ‘Zillah’ is said
to imply ‘dark’. Women’s darkness could
be a charm, so Lamech had two wives with
totally different taste. Who knows the truth?
I didn’t see them myself. Cain’s tradition of
bad blood was adopted by good blood –
Abraham and Jacob who had several wives.
Define ‘bad’. Define ‘good’. I used to envy
polygamy, but how fortunate I have only
one wife! How can I serve several wives?
Even serving only one woman is too hard.
Well, Biblical ancestors, they didn’t serve
women, but they took care of them. Yeah!
No matter how beautiful it is,
if it won’t seduce me
with its fragrance,
if it won’t greet me
with its warm heart,
it would be just
a flower in a vase,
a unnecessary attraction to innocent bystanders,
a cheap decoration in a so-so restaurant.
The flower that was thrown in the garbage can
even before it was touched by my hands.
I’ve written poems for this flower, so
If I excrete it from my mind,
It will bequeath beautiful poems, but
the flower I dumped,
whose flower will it become and
be thrown away again?
‘Cause of my spirit of mercy,
It would take long to realize that
I’ve been trashed by the flower…
In a room that is darker than the hair
of a virgin ghost, a candlelight that
is smaller than a mustard seed will
light up this not-so-small room bright
and make cockroaches take flight
and make the ghost vent her spite
in a dark dark mountain outside.
Then why can’t I light the candle?
I don’t have to see anyway. In no
time, my eyes will get used to the
dark and I can see what I want to
see. I won’t have to drive the vengeful
ghost out with lighted candle. I will
take revenge for her. I didn’t know
this small candle was so powerful…
Full Human [Gospel of Mary: Page 9:16-20]
In a bright woman’s dream,
God appeared and said
“You are Jesus”.
She looked a bit odd,
but was ignored ‘cause
it was none of my damn business.
Perhaps she is a really bright woman.
A beautiful woman claimed
she was a goddess so
I called her a crazy bitch, but
now I see she might be a full human who
who discovered her own divinity.
I have long worshipped and served my wife
As goddess, but come to think of it,
I am god too…
Are there ranks among gods too?
You are alone on the beach.
With your back turning toward the world,
with your eyes fixing on the horizon,
with your ears being buried in dull sound of wave,
you don’t look lonely.
Perhaps your yearning is your lover.
You, sitting alone in a packed café,
don’t look lonely.
You don’t seem to be waiting for somebody.
Whom do you give your smile to?
Ah! You are sharing a cup of coffee
with your longing sitting vis-à-vis with you.
Can I be jealous?
I will make your yearning my rival in love,
I will hate your longing that took away your loneliness and
I will pour my sigh on your back that doesn’t look lonely.
Look, my love!
Nobody’s going to sit on your bench.
There’s no seat by you.
While pacing around your bench,
should I make my longing for you my lover?
Do not ruin the drama, buddy.
Wearing a thick mask,
Showing a big bravado,
Flying all kinds of lies,
You’ve become a typical hypocrite.
If a sufficient amount of time passes,
the mask will become your face that
can’t be taken off from you,
the bravado will be carved in your memory forever
as undeniable fact
the lies will turn into poetic expressions and
will remain forever in people’s heart.
Well, then you can walk in high pride
Just like Pharisees and
you don’t worry about Jesus’s little scolding and
just entertain the spectators
By acting natural.
Right! I saw that thing clearly, but
It could be a hologram?
Sometimes visible, in another time invisible,
distorted once in a while,
chopped here and there.
Perhaps I have been tortured too long
in the cramped seat so
I might have talked drivel
Looks like I have a talent in conning, but
I need more practice in acting
‘til I am able to act naturally
as if I was born like that.
I envy people who drink. At least they have something to blame everything on. – Oscar Levant
Great words! We should blame others for our problems in order to survive this hostile world. “This is my fault!” might make you a saint, but it could render you neurotic and eventually drive you crazy. Therefore, we definitely need something or somebody to blame on. That is why we need religion. That is why we need God who created us Christians. God created us without our consent so He is responsible for all our miseries, isn’t He? However, the Church that claims it is the voice of God pushes the faithfuls to the sinner’s pit by proclaiming the so-called Gospel saying that we are all sinners who almost destroyed this beautiful world God created for us and we can be saved by listening to the Church’s dogma and obey any rules that the Church made up to maintain the organization. Is Church’s will God’s will? God wants us to complain to Him and challenge Him about alleged God’s will. God is willing to solve any problems we have in this world but the Church blocks the channel to God and impose Church’s will on us. We are God’s beautiful creatures and supposed to lead happy lives in this world and forever and ever in Heaven. So blame God for any problems in your life and ask Him for help! What if God doesn’t exist? If God doesn’t exist, create Him/Her. God gave us brilliant brains to make anything possible including creating God. Too bad some people don’t have God to blame on. I can’t image how they can overcome their miseries. Well, they are all God’s creatures so they must have created something just like we created God to throw all their problems to.